REFLECTIONS ON THE CORONAVIRUS – DAY 42 –
I arrived home from a trip a few years back, feeling a little lost. My family and I decided to escape winter, rent a house on the beach for a couple of months, visit my Mom and extended family, and relax. For me, it also served as a work trip. I produced a workshop and offered healing sessions while there.
When I got home, I felt some sadness and longing. Sure, I missed my family members and the place on the beach. But, this feeling was different. There was something I had there I was missing. I tried to figure it out. I rearranged my schedule, committed to taking more walks in nature, and signed up for yoga classes as I did there.
Several months went by and I still felt a longing. I continued to struggle to figure it out. One day I heard in meditation, “you’re not going to find it out there.” I chuckled, and thought to myself “that old message again.”
Today is day 42 of the quarantine for me. This time has been reminiscent of a transformative journey. Those journeys involve stepping out of my life and usual routine and commonly lead to diving deep within myself. I started this isolation time by reevaluating my priorities, re-visioning my work, and otherwise, getting my house in order. I focused on the outer world.
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This quarantine time has also been reminiscent of a wild storm. This storm with its deluge of rain, high winds, thunder and lightning is blowing through and shaking everything up. At times I want to hide under the bed with the cat. But, mostly I want to throw open the windows and doors and invite the storm in. I want it to blow down dead branches, wash away whole roads, and shake the house to its foundations.
Deep into my inner journey, I am envisioning what it will be like after the storm.
You see, what I was longing for after our stay on the beach, was that encounter with self. I was missing the inner exploration. Because I wasn’t fully aware of it at the time, I couldn’t continue with it, and I never fully allowed it to shake me to my core. Therefore, I also never experienced the newfound clarity, lightness of being, and sense of finding self that comes after the storm.
